Hello! So I'm lucky enough to be able to write again before we leave... tomorrow! It's so crazy that it's here. There are no more errands to run, no more plans to make, no more things to pack, no more money to raise. It's just here. In less than 24 hours. I'm speechless. It was such a wonderful feeling, we met up with the group again tonight and we packed our duffel bags full of the things we are giving away. These are the biggest bags I've ever seen in my whole life!! Mine weighs .2 pounds under the 40 pound limit :) I'm just so happy that a mere 8 people can bring enough toys for two or three hundred kids and enough clothes and medical supplies for another couple hundred people!
It's so amazing to me too that most of my fears have pretty much fallen away. Seriously! Every time I pray it's like God takes away another fear so that the vision of my purpose there becomes more and more clear.
And so I come to the point of this blog. Today I read a verse, and it tied so many other things together that I've been thinking about, and I really, really felt like I wanted to share it. 1 Peter 2:2-3. "As newborn babies, desire the pure milk of the word, that you may grow thereby, if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is gracious." This made me think of something I've been reading in this awesome book called Captivating. It's all about the heart of a woman and how this reveals things about God's heart. The book says (and I know this is true because I've felt this very thing) that one of the greatest, deepest desires of a woman's heart is to be pursued. Pursued like she is the most wonderful, beautiful, precious thing on earth. I'm positive that this deep desire of my heart and every woman's heart is that of God's as well. He wants to be pursued by us, sought after by us, fought for by us, like He is everything we will ever want or need. And guess what... He is everything we'll ever need. So why on earth have I been pursuing Him so weakly?! Truly, if the path to Life and the path to death were sitting there on either side of you, wouldn't you run down the path towards Life with every single bit of strength in your being? Wouldn't you give everything you possibly could to reach the end of that path and throw yourself into the safety of God's arms? I think I forget about Him too much. Instead of treating Him as my pure milk, my life force, I treat Him like something that I can just get around to later.
So here's to pursuing my God like I've never pursued Him before, like He deserves to be pursued. Here's to seeking Him with all that I am while I am in India, and filling myself with His beauty and love until it spills out from me. Here's to building such a new, wonderful, beautiful relationship with my Father that I will never want to turn my face away again. I love you Jesus.
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